Then what?

Let me tell you where I sit today. It is nearly 9:30 in the morning and my mind is trying to be filled with guilt for not already have gotten to my office, while all that is in my heart and soul longs to to sit here with my Father a little longer. I needed this morning to FINALLY wake early, forsake my schedule and be with the one I love so deeply. Struggling with fear and doubt I must seek out what the source of that fear is.

I started by reading Esther a woman who by all reasons should have been terrified, but still did what she knew she had to do. Est 4:16 she says "and if I perish, I perish." In relation the decision I face and the fears I dwell on can not even begin to compare. But what if I used that statement? "and if I _____, then ________." And if I am lonely, then _____, and if I am single forever, then ____, and if something happens to my family while I am away, then ____. I could go on and on with the fears I have. The enemy knows my fears, he gets me to ask myself "what if?" And though it hasn't happened and may never happened, if he gets me to ask "what if?" then he has gotten to me. "What if?" is saying "I fear, I fear, I fear" So what if? What if I am lonely? Then what? I might cry. Then what? I might get mad at the Father. Then what? I might lay flat on my back with the Word on my face. Then what? I might memorize verses. Then what? You see eventually I would have to get up, go back and do what He has called me to do. I know this because my Father is good and faithful. My Father is faithful. My Father is faithful. My Father is faithful. And if I _____, then my Father will take care of me.